Thursday, September 4, 2008
so many thoughts after reading this again.http://www.charleneyl.blogspot.com/sometimes i wonder, why is it her?even though i dunno her.but each time after reading her posts i felt sad too.just like hw she feels.but i oso know tt, nobody not you, or anyone else will ever feel the pain she's suffering nw. living each day in misery and hurting herself so as to lessen the pain in her.she's strong? maybe she's nt.nw.. i learnt a lesson.love ur loved ones b4 its too late.yes.. i'm wonderingwhen will i haf a chance to love my dearest boy?& love those tt really cares & love me too.i love them? sometimes i really dunno too.i love my dearest boy? yes. i love him.but hw do i define love.hw can i confirm tt i do really love him?does it mean tt,if i'm willing to sacrifice my life for him it means tt i love him?does it mean tt,every hour, min, sec my mind is full of him & tt means tt i love him?does it mean tt,whenever smth bad or happy things happen to him,my mood will be affected. either happy or sad & tt means i love him?but in reality, i still dunno him & i know he's too far frm me.i dun understand him, i dunno actually wad's he thinking in his mind.i only know the him tt he show on tv programmes.nth else.pathetic isn't it?& jolly well i dare to say tt i love him.but..of cos i do wish to know the inner part of him?but do i haf the chance? probably yes when i'm dead.life's really sad sometimes.sometimes, i really hope tt i can lead a simple life.with just some of my loved ones & some $.nth else.but..due to the competitve world we r facing nw.its hard even to lead a simple life?& becos of this, nature of pple changes too.hais.sad life.i'm actually tearing when typing.-.-wads happening to me man.my goodness.ps: i feel lonely sometimes.i know i just need you.. my luo.when will u be there for me? i need you.i'm falling deeper each day.
