Saturday, September 27, 2008
still nt used to it.nt used to the changes in my life.life isn't gd in the past,nt even nw.& its worst i think.friends, family, everything.just everything changes.& i hate this kind of life.its making me going crazy real soon.yes. real soon.i hate living in this world,but i haf too.its torturing me.really.at least in the past, i dun feel tt cos everything was still ok.nw?hais.i haf a bunch of gd frens in the past.but..it lasted nt long.cos of the diputes, quarrels.& so friendship ended there.hais nw..i'm only left wif 2 gd frens.will we haf quarrels? conflicts? disputes? & then end our friendship too?nobody knows.of cos there's possibility too.other than tt,i oso haf a gd fren.a really gd 1.he treats me real gd.by comparing the friends i haf,he's the one tt treated me the best,out of all of them.we're gd in the past, nw?hmm ...but all these changes becos of me.problem lies in me, nt him.i oso can't understand y can't i just treat him like hw he treated me.pple say i bully him, make use of him & worst says he's my dog.but he told me he dun mind.i'm really terrible man.but...i really really appreciated the friendship i had between us.i really sees u as my friend.a friend tt will help me when i'm in need of help or wad.hais.blame myself for everything then.family.the day he moved out, i thought its the end of the terrible life i haf been living in& nw he's back.back to spoil everything i had.y?y is he my brother?y can't i haf a brother tt dotes on me & nt smoke?y man?can someone give me an answer?i doubt so.& nw the relationship wif my dad became bad too.hais.he's crazy i can say.coming back hm everyday pulling a long face.just like i owe him thousands of $.only 1 thing tt's haf nt been changing.the love i haf for my darling.the cuteness of him, everything.i wan back the past.can i?ps: i miss the past i had but i miss u more than anything.
